jun xian told me its time to update. he reminded me that my last entry was dated back to ... 4 days ago. which is quite long i guess. okay. not that long compared to others who dunt update like what? 81133540 years?

alrights.

we'll fish out a topic to talk on. lets saaaaayyy... responsibility again.

i swear i'll just die with too much responsibility. im already dying cuz of all the dates that i have to go to certain schools to teach. and i think due to sickness/fatique, i decided that i can't take too many schools.

lets say monday. i chose family over work cuz i really needed a break. (it was my parents' 20th anniversary) i know i've let the bartley sec 1s down, but i have my reasons to prior my family. thursday. i've left for home right after rosyth because i had (slight) cramps and i didn't feel like going to serangoon. i know i know i know i have my reasons, but whether these reasons are resonable or not, i think i've let the students down. its just not right for me to leave them alone there and not even informing before hand.

what kind of teacher am i? a lousy and screwed up and irresponsible (and fat) teacher. and IT fair at suntec tml. i already feel like ponning. and sunday's band prac? if i dunt pon IT fair on sunday, i'll have to pon sunday's band prac too. and its already the 3rd time im doing that. which isn't good.

i guess its partly due to the fact that i've lost my planner and that i've lost track of time. i dunno what has that got to do with me feeling drained, but i swear that's partly the reason. and my pay. its so wrong. i dunt feel like working after all, and going back to ikea, which would definatly earn me more money and save me more energy/voice/brain cells. but that would mean less talking and time.

but anyway, i think the 1st thing i should do is to sleep early. ... as early as 1 a.m.

good morning, world. sleep tight.

can we have 34/7 instead of 24/7? this way i can get more rest. (: