tainted-sanity

2009-12-06T02:06:00.002+08:00

;where i sit around, waiting for you to remember.

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oh hello, blog! just to let you know what's up with my life, i'm currently using tumblr, and i think its way cooler than you, because it has a twitter add-on! i know its a rip off from you or something, but its just cooler, because all the cool people uses tumblr. so how have you been, blog? i haven't seen you in sucha long time i feel like i don't know you anymore. we should meet up for starbucks one day and talk our hearts out. but for now, i really need to sleep. good night!

2009-09-19T12:46:00.002+08:00

bitch bitch bitch bitch bitchhhhhhhh.

run along now, with all the money and love that you've cheated.

don't turn back. never ever turn back, because you're gonna fall.

wait, its not like you won't fall if you don't turn anyway.

but my point is, you know what? just fuck off. nobody really wants to see you anymore.

and leave your family name behind, cause you're no longer a part of us.

2009-08-14T16:32:00.001+08:00

I don't wanna hurt you cause I don't think it's a virtue
But you and I have come to our end
Believe me when I tell you that I never wanna see you again
And please can you stop calling cause it's getting really boring
And I've told you I don't want to be friends
Believe me when I tell you that I never wanna see you again

How on earth could I be any more obvious?
It never really did and now it's never gonna happen
with the two of us
I don't understand what it is that you're chasing after
But it makes me really sad to hear you sound so desperate
It just makes it harder

2009-08-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

down we plunge to the prisons of my mind

2009-08-03T19:13:00.001+08:00

I wish sarahh will stop trying to poison me. Just make it work once and for all.

To get you a better idea of what is going on, I'm being terrorized by my very own bestie. She is experimenting how to make our own caramel machiato, and I'm her non-volunteer test subject.

Sucks to be me, huh.

Okay this time I'm screaming. SAVE ME. ANYONE?
*secretly pass all the drinks to starbucks people*

2009-08-03T00:04:00.000+08:00

i'm on the phone with chermaine and sarah right now.

it's been so long i talked with real girlfriends. it feels so nice to talk to them once again. everyone's busy with different stuff now, and sarah just returned from boston. chermaine's working practically everyday, and i'm distracted with other stuff.

i'll never trade the both of them for fries! i swear!

2009-07-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

i'm damn good at this.

should i be proud?

2009-07-05T11:39:00.001+08:00

her lips.

2009-06-18T01:57:00.002+08:00

i kinda liked it your way how you shyly placed your eyes on me

did you ever know that i had mine on you.

sarah's leaving for boston, and chermaine's leaving for batam (?!).

2 bimbos going overseas i wonder what's gonna happen.

i can so picture sarah screaming at her room mate because she laughed at her for putting on face masks.

and chermaine desperately saving a drowning being, only to realise that its actually a message in a bottle from her little prince charming.

its really worth wondering what happens if the 3 of us are overseas together.

put that aside, i met up with my childhood friends today!

its funny how we got together when we were young, like, really, really young.

our mothers were saying how brave they were, when all of us were little, and they randomly brought us to malaysia, where nobody knew anything about malaysia.

(looks like we aren't the only bimbos living in this house, hello.)

and when i say little, we were 3, 4 and 5, with me being the oldest there.

we all met in the mcdonalds in belestier road. we all used to stay there.

then we grew older, and further apart we practically don't meet anymore.

its so funny how on a day like this we meet up, and i'm 21.

all these once upon a time kinda stories just makes your heart melt.

then i met up with mervyn, kang hao and felix who were my primary school classmates. HAHAHA. i haven't seen mervyn since primary school, and only met up with the other two recently. went minds cafe and played this game called cut throat or something like that. its damn stupid.

i find it really amazing how people around you actually change so much, but still stay the same. okay that didn't really made much sense, but you get what i mean, i hope. everyone's got their own lives, including myself, but when its a get-together kinda thing again, we just click so well.

2009-06-17T12:04:00.002+08:00

moonlight sonata makes one cry.

no, not because of the emotional part, where you think of how beethoven led his life even though all the odds are against his talent, but more like he was so troubled, that he wrote complicated notes, thinking that anyone can play like him.

ok i'm not complaining, really. i think the best way to interpret this piece, would be playing it with such emotion that shows how painful it was during the course of learning the piece.

i'm half thinking of giving up the prelude, because its not an advantage when i'm playing moonlight. come to think of it, i'll be playing moonlight movement 3 before the prelude, which both consist of running notes. fast, furious running notes. i mean, if i were the audience, i wouldn't enjoy listening to the sound tired fingers trying to catch their breath. if i were to play the prelude, i think i would be trying too hard to show off.

i should play an etude. don't come suggesting chopin, because i'm not good enough for him. his works are way too amazing for anyone to even perform them with his humbleness. how he wrote such great pieces and never playing them with a glorious, proud sound. how can anyone play it like him?

2009-06-15T15:34:00.002+08:00

they say colours of the rainbow make you happy, but i beg to differ, when i'm number 9 on the charts. QQ.

but that is a really nice colour combination. let me see; red, orange, yellow, green, pink (?!), sky blue and dark blue can so be translated to 'dk, druids, rogues, hunters, paladins, mages and shamans'.

well done. this is what wow moulds you into. a stupid person. with stupid DPS. cryyy.

2009-06-13T23:52:00.002+08:00

i was from the band.

i played the percussion since i was 9.

i was from a brass band, and somehow it didn't seemed right. i told my mommy how much better 'titanic' would sound with the flute instead.

then i joined the band in STC.

there were the flutes the clarinets, the missing oboes, and the saxophones.

and we even played a piece that included a piano solo.

and throughout my secondary school, i was proud of music.

then my passion grew.

lessons at ACS was what changed my perspective of music.

i wanted more than just what i was playing, so i started pushing myself in terms of both percussion, and piano.

at the peak, i completed 10 O level music papers within 3 days, practiced piano like i never did before.

when O level was done and over, so was my grade 8 exams, i felt i wanted something more, but what?

then i joined the wind symphony as i moved on to republic poly.

i realized there, that i do not crave for those sounds anymore. something was missing.

the strings, i think, was what the gap was.

i wasn't interested in the sound of the band anymore. i felt it died off in me. so i gave up the sound of the band for strings.

it was amazing, how beautiful the mellow sound of the cello blended with the violas and violins.

then i learnt that without the band, the strings weren't as beautiful.

today, viva la symphonie reminded me where i came from.

this very familiar sounds.. so vibrant.

the sound of hard work blended with passion and laughter.

this music, is of such a different level from it first started.

and its beautiful.

2009-06-09T18:02:00.002+08:00

it's been so long. playing sims again makes me wonder about life and how its turned out again.

my sims had been great. she's a level 10 symphonic orchestra composer, and he's a level 10 super star athletic, both fulfilling their lifetime wishes, and are old. they have a pair of twin teens who are on their honor rolls in school. they are going to be doctors and lawyers in future.

which brings me to the point to look at my own life.

what's my lifetime wish?

what am i doing right now in my life to fulfill whatever that dream is?

how am i going to do without a cheat code to meet my basic necessities?

(yes shut i play with the money cheat)

i have a neighbor in sims called Milton Tong. he's a friend of my sim. i had a warning popped onto my window to tell me that their friendship is fading and i better save this friendship. but she was so busy with work, and halfway through the game, another warning popped up to tell me that Milton had passed away. how sad. that makes me wonder how are all my friends doing.

and then my mom took my laptop that i was playing sims on back and i was back to wow to level my mage. i just xfered my mage over from daggerspine. hahahah my very first toon. eh! considering that its a pre-BC toon, Private Hemiola is very geared, because she's all clad in blues and she has an epic ring!

and zairt went 'why did you bother to reroll a mage? you went from being our best elemental shammy to our worst mage'

... well done.

2009-06-03T00:38:00.002+08:00

i've never been through so many events in my life at suntec before.

we, as in qijian, zairt and rawshoff, and i, were out just now, then after dinner we didn't know what to do and someone just went 'i feel that suntec is calling us'

so we all head over to suntec

and i tell you, it was the most exciting suntec trip of my life

we played archery, zairt caught a plushy on the grab grab machine, and esctax & i rode on the simulator machine.

it was godammit exciting i tell you!

and then i found out that we have an alt bank guild named 'mad profits' after our original guild 'mad prophets'. how very smart.

2009-06-01T03:25:00.002+08:00

this is bad. i cannot sleep before 3 am. and even now, at 3.26 am, i'm still blogging.

what's worse is, i really have nothing to blog about other than the amazing flea market opposite church, and my amazing dps dealt today. thanks to the blessings that talv gave.

i don't like being judged. i like just how i think people think badly of me. i don't think they like me too much, but that doesn't mean i have to feel the same way towards them, i think. but i like it when even after probably years of not keeping in touch, they still call your name from a far, and tell me that they miss me.

i like being missed.
i like to feel important.

that is probably the reason why i feel left out so easily. and how i feel people are being so fake when they see me. and therefore i like to think how badly they think of me.

3.30 in the morning, people. i'm not making much sense. nevertheless, i feel that i should treat my friends better. the way friends should be treated. i should cut their gems for free.

2009-05-23T03:06:00.002+08:00

i am not going to sing praises to the final fantasy concert, not today.

neither am i going to talk about how good the concert was, enough people have done that already.

in fact, i would talk about some things that would make some of you feel a bit uncomfortable.

2nd violins (or was it 3rd?) were slightly off.

wrong notes here and there.

conducting and the music expressed was slightly ... odd, i would say, but i guess its pretty subjective.

but towards end of the concert, where the everyone were cheering for the encore, these sounds indicated to me that the concert is still on-going. and what i wouldn't give just to here these sounds again. in the end, its these small things that we remember, the little imperfections that made them perfect.

ok nice try. phails.

but my point is, it was technically not a very good concert, but there were great company, good music, good tone, and what was best was that i was able to sit back and enjoy the music without worrying that i might miss out some parts and i won't be able to discuss it musically after the concert. silly boy was sitting beside me all along listening to the concert (btw, i realised how much he's cuter on the left side of the face compared to the right side). i loved how they combined the animation and the music. the chocobos and how it evolved (NEW! and improved!) FF1 is amazing, given the technology back then. oh, and i think mr uematsu walks like a cute mascot on stage. <3>

its the usual after concert. met up with zairt rawshoff and some friend (whom i cannot remember the name) and the girlf for dinner and they went off to play poker at someone's house and then i left.

anyway, its in the middle of the night and i was looking at the FCD 2008 photos. it was so much different back then, although its at the same place. the whole atmosphere was so different. it felt more like a family. (HAHA beautifully imperfect again). it was really fun back then. much more laughter. (xin jian and his balloon bed, for example). i don't mean that i don't like FCD '09. its just that, i haven't been working for quite some time and i think there are people whom i haven't really talk to like a close friend. and we didn't get to come together to prepare for FCD together too.

i think what i lack with the store is the bonding. i really wish that i'm closer with them, but i guess its just difficult, when i'm not putting down shifts there anymore.

2009-05-20T00:23:00.002+08:00

http://www.dollmore.net/shop/step1.php?number=5719

this, is what i call gorgeous. i want this. would anyone donate?

i'm not a fan of dolls. or dollfies. but this is totally gorgeous.

i would buy it, if

i strike lottery
someone subsidize
money fall from the sky in front of me (which also mean striking lottery, and the chances are equivalent
i'm ready to get married and support a family financially all by myself (husbands not included.)
i get a full time job which pays me at least 5k a month.

2 of the options are impossible

2 of the options are clearly not gonna happen in the next 2 months

and 1 of the option is rather far-fetched.

match the possibilities.

i'm staring at my rachmaninoff piece now and wondering why. no i'm not wondering why did i choose this piece. i'm just wondering why is it composed like that. and what is the easiest way to learn this piece.

and its getting difficult because its getting late, and i'm being ignored.

2009-05-14T10:06:00.002+08:00

i think shaynie is going to die talking to me. HAHAHAH.

but again, i think he's digging his own grave. i mean, whoever talks to me about financial stuff and careers relating to financial and numbers should know that i won't understand half the things that they're trying to say.

talk to me about pink. i know every shade of it!

2009-05-11T01:08:00.002+08:00

it's hilarious sometimes you laugh at the immaturity in people and notice that the immaturity is actually in yourself. that's when your world crumbles. and i bet you'll never feel the way i did.

its been a busy week. i can't believe i'm actually spending most of my time on piano. and when i'm tired of squinting at the notes, i nap. and when i wake up, its back to the piano. amazing. i am actually wondering what's gotten into me. i don't even feel like logging onto wow anymore, since now that zairt, wieks, rawshoff, byak are missing. i'm only there cause of aiera and qijian, and also my CONQUERERS' WORLDBREAKER GLOVERS WITH AN EPIC GEM MWAHHAHAAHA. i feel slightly accomplished now that i've gotten my kirin'tor familiar.

i like my new piano teacher. of course i haven't gotten used to him yet, but so far i like the way he understands where i am coming from, but still gives me a different opinion. he's really enthusiastic about lessons. he dances to show expressions. a little exaggerating , but it makes me understand whut he wants when i'm not good at guessing what people wants. oh and his house is beautiful. he collects the most beautiful junks on earth. candle lit place, carpets and rugs, tv-less living room (yes that's my dream living room since young. tvs are only meant to be placed in the master's bed room for watching dvds), mozart cups and other pretty trinklets that you would probably see in my room.

i'm done with reading the life of rachmaninoff. i think i've got to read the program notes guide now so that i can come up with something good to write. but for now, i'm going to bed. nights all!

2009-05-10T00:45:00.002+08:00

rachmaninoff is beautiful.

war. depression. first born. revolution.

that's the way i'm gonna interpret this prelude.

why C minor? what's the cycle. what does it mean.

F#-

Bb+

D-

D+

G-

Eb+

C-

Ab+

Eb-

Gb+

Certain characteristics of the set, such as the recurrence of stepwise motion, common chords between adjacent preludes, and the relationship between the first and last preludes (both marked Largo, with the latter in the parallel major of the former) suggest that the works could be played as a set.

right.

2009-05-04T18:16:00.002+08:00

pink nails are amazing. they make you the world's most bimbotic person on earth, boys or girls.
these nails on my finger they're making me make silly silly mistakes today, like, expecting someone who's wearing a chemical suit to speak chemical, and bird observation session during lunch, and eating 3 meals by 12 noon thinking i won't get fat.

nevertheless, i survived today.

oh, and susan boyle's really great. she made me listen to the entire 10th anniversary series to les miserables, and i particularly find 'master of the house' amusing. susan boyle should really sing it.

heh. at qijian's place now. he's happily hogging onto my DS trying to prove that he can play elite beat agents like a pro, only to tell me that the cheat is activated. well done. okay i'm leaving sooon.

2009-05-01T01:44:00.002+08:00

cookie (to cally): do you know who's jonathan?
cally: urh.. ?
cookie: do i know him?

epic.

skating today was really fun. totally saw a guy with crocodile (okay they call it dinosaur for some reasons) gloves. cute. i was skating around, trying my utmost best to hide all my bimbotic actions and unwanted attention, but ultimately, i was teaching a freshie to skate, and he fell in front of me, and i crashed onto him. well done. there goes my virgin experience of falling on ice.

(i'm in a battleground with someone called babycuddles and someone else called cutipie)

ice skating is alot like, a raid strategy, like, you always have to think about your next move..

'if you're melee, what you should be thinking now is "where is there an opening for me to run out of the mines" and "how should i run out of the runes" etc'

"RUNES! MOVE."

"LAZER BARRAGE. RUN"

pretty much like that.

okay that post had been left like that for 2 days now.

went ikea yesterday and i cooked meatballs at one of the display kitchens. serious fun, i tell you. the person allowed me to try cooking even though i told him i can't cook at all.. he told me "how can you not know how to cook when your dad works in jade palace". i was like, !?!?!?!! how the heck does he know man.

and yes now i have to rush to kovan to teach already and i'm not changed yet. *flies*

2009-04-22T01:33:00.002+08:00

today was satisfying. the smiles, the laughters from both the staff of GWC & Sentosa AND the public were all worth the hard work. it was really, heart-warming that one of the fans queueing for the ice cream queue for a 2nd time just to get an ice cream for me cause i look really tired from directing the queue. people telling you 'the ice cream looks really hard, you need help?' felt really appreciated. its nice just to answer questions like 'the ice cream really free one arh? why arh?' and 'what's this long queue for?'. and you see them queueing up twice, thrice, four times to get more ice cream. it was really exhausting, but i'll be more than happy to work like that again, where all of the gwc staff gathers at the store to scoop ice cream at the same time.

the queue was really, really long this year compared to last year. it went all the way from the side of our store, to the singtel shop, then it made a u-turn to DBS bank all the way back to harris. bringing ice cream to the tenants with deborah was damn fun, although i'm still quite puzzled over the foot reflexology thing. my first shift was to manage the queue, to direct the people where they are supposed to move forward and stop at certain point so they won't affect the business. i think i suck at it casue i always miss the que. i had quite a nice time talking to the people while directing the queue, but funny thing is the conversation never last more than 5 minutes, because it was moving so fast. everyone were surprised by how fast the queue was even it was looooooong. oh and i had fun bringing pregnant women all the way to the front to get their ice cream. ahhahahah! she must be some happy mother.

scooping the ice cream was a real work out. my ice cream scoopes weren't round. they were shapes of all sorts. at the end of the day cleaning up the store was disgusting. i think i flooded the store because the dipwell was choked. oopes. the overall process was damn fast, because there were like 20 people doing closing. 10x the speed i guess.

met up with chermaine for dinner and starbucks. we talked and it made me realise alot of stuff. the good the bad and the ugly. i just feel really lucky to be able to meet people like sarah and chermaine through working, because they make me feel different. they made me see clearly what's right, and what's wrong, and guide me along the way. and then by the time i cabbed over and met qijian, i was like a replica of a zombie. i think i just kept telling him things that didn't go through my mind. i hope i haven't say anything bad.

2009-04-20T00:00:00.003+08:00

i've been having really bad dream these days.

i dreamt that it was disaster day and my apartment flew up into the sky and crashed. i can still remember exactly how it felt to be flying up there, how cold it became as the altitude rose and how my heart jumped out of place when we were crashing down. yeah something like when you're on those machines at the theme park. yes its rather scary knowing that you've got nowhere to run. funny how everything in my house was still properly in place, and my mom told my brother & i to pack our stuff, and we'll leave to our dad's other house immediately. the first thing my brother & i took were our laptops. HAHA.

then i dreamt that we were all in a room, fighting off monsters using daggers, and we were supposed to 'leave instance', but this evil girl place a curse on me that i cannot move, and each time the curse time is almost up, she'll be back to curse me again, and the curse stacked up to 15 times, and i won't be able to move until idk when. i tried to get lamach to help, but he couldn't find the decurse skill. and when he finally found it, i was all covered in blood from killing the monsters.

i can't really remember the rest of the bad dreams, but yeah, they were all pretty bad. i don't know what does all these dreams meant.. perhaps i'm disturbed by something that i don't even know of. or they are signs that the world of coming to an end. or its a sign that i'm playing games / watching movies too much.

or they don't mean a thing at all.

2009-04-11T22:33:00.001+08:00

all these uncertainties, they are killing me.

i guess i just have to fight my own insecurities.

2009-04-11T01:48:00.000+08:00

this very familiar feeling of being unwanted.

2009-04-02T21:45:00.001+08:00

we all thought it was gone, but at the end of the day, forever actually takes its meaning.

and that's when the hurting comes in.

2009-03-05T22:11:00.002+08:00

Have no fear, my little one
Peace be with you now
Love has come to guide you home
Ro our Father's house

Fly with us, courageous one
On our wings of light
Past the days of fear and pain
To our Father's side

So say goodbye for just awhile
And through the tears you'll start to smile
For soon you'll be together
In heaven's arms forever
At every step you're not alone
Love's by your side to lead you on
No looking back from here
Your journey home has only just begun

Dance with us, my gentle one
As we sing your song
The starts he made will light your way
To our Father's house

Arise my child, my precious one
Awakening in your eyes
Love is calling you by name
To our Father's arms

i saw him today. so small, so quiet, so peaceful.
even the kids were saying 'i remember last week he was telling me how dinosaurs eat dinosaurs, now he doesn't speak anymore.' and 'he was so talkative, so lively'. but everything's a past tense now. he's gone, to a better place with the Lord. sure, we're all gonna miss him loads. we all yearn for the chance to watch him grow, to make new friends. all we could think of to cheer us up is how he had brought joy to us, especially his family for the past 3 years. its a bonus, right?

what if one day, when i die, and people start talking about me using past tense.

oh. squall. i love squall. amazingly he's -still- 17 since the day i knew him. he doesn't have to worry about people thinking and talking about him in the past tense. he'll be there forever. hahah!

school's a bitch. as soon as i wanna do well, i got to defer by a semester. hahahah bitch.

2009-02-25T00:48:00.002+08:00

i think what i'm really lack of in life is discipline. commitment. and getting down to doing things.
i think procrastination is something i use to escape my lack of discipline.
and thats why i failed my modules.
and fyp.

goodbye, RP, and hello again.

this is a very good start for the year. i'm getting back at working, giving more fixed schedules and getting to work, teaching piano, gym and a bit of school. WoW's a little lighter now, since i don't have to do the management anymore. zairt's been nice enough to take me in. <3<3 i love the mad prophets. i think they're the best bunch of people on earth.

love today. studying while listening to moonlight sonata irl is the best thing on earth.
<3 it when all you have to do is to sit there and read up stuff while someone cooks, and then play the piano. music irl rules over iPod.

2009-02-19T01:30:00.002+08:00

make my wish come true.
i wanna visit blizzard's headquaters.
i'll be the happiest person dead or alive if i were to even step a foot into that campus.
its frigging coooool.

2009-02-18T18:46:00.002+08:00

what's the first thing that came across your mind when someone told you that valentine's day is around the corner?

crowds.

superly overpriced dinners.

ridiculously expensive flowers.

and chocolates.

and cards.

(okay, and balloons and kisses and more flowers. global warming, anyone?)

even in wow, we celebrate 'love is in the air' where we'll have to flirt with the guards once every hour to receive the gift of adoration, which would, if you're lucky, gives you a pet, which also gives you an achievement. we talk to them to receive other gifts in exchange for chocolate buffs and other stuff like rose petals, which you have to sprinkle them on other players. (ps. troll rogues are really a myth).

seriously, i'll cry if i'll have to squeeze through the crowds in town on that saturday. someone was kind enough to come over for dinner, and we had mac and cheeeese. <3>

its really sad. on normal days, its okay to have your own life, and tell your partner that 'i'm busy, i'll meet you another day'. but honestly, i would feel very rejected, if he tells me 'i'm not free on valentines.' there goes the saying 'if you truly love each other, every other day is valentines.' i'm sorry, i'm not that gracious. forget the flowers and the chocolates. i'd like to have a card. a hand written card, not e-mails or MSN messages or SMS. that would make valentine's perfect.

its just too bad that sometimes life doesn't necessarily go the way you want it to be. *stares at the balloon floating around my room and frowns* (its quite disturbing, yo, but thanks)

anyway. i'm frigging proud of myself. i went to gym, and i'm planning to be there for a long period of time. its really tiring, i know, but i want to be skinny. i want to be one of those skinny bitches that goes town and stare at you like you've eaten an extra pea. mwahahahah. i'll donate all my pop tarts and other real life food buffs to someone and i'll start eating greeeens. be a good girl, yinkwan.

working today was really, really boring. maria is quite a funny person, but she came in only at 12.30. ): can't wait to work with alcinda. working with sarahh on friday opening. yayness. oh and there's this spin spin event this week end at gwc's ben & jerry's. apparently if you spend more than 25 bucks, you'll get a chance to spin the moowheel and win prizes. so do head there, if you want to have fun. i'll be working somewhere else though. sighs.

2009-02-09T02:23:00.002+08:00

i realized that no matter how much you try to behave in the likeness of someone who doesn't appreciate you at all, it all boils down to nothing but emptiness. years of hard work led me to nothing but a new start with someone else makes me feel that i had given up, which is a first in most things i do in things that i really, really feel for.

but again. this feels good. i haven't felt like this for the longest time.

on a lighter note, i watched the piano recital by chen jie at the infamous esplanade concert hall today with nicholas and his friend. no doubt, she played really well, but i think there's a little misinterpretation in some of her movements. but again, its probably me, for i am no professional pianist. i think, for me to play at her standard, i'll probably take another 5 years of hard work and practices. you know, she's only a year older than me, and she's playing in front of so many people? it kinda makes me feel ashamed of myself actually. if i could stop wow and start practicing czerny, i would be able to do things that i never thought i could do.

keyword: if.

what i'm most amazed is how she played the chinese pieces. i'm not a fan of chinese pieces being played on the piano, i never really liked compositions like these. but i actually enjoyed a piece. its originally played on a suona, and she actually brought out the characteristics of a suona on the piano. nicholas' friend is probably right where she played it a little westernized, but to me it was alright. i just didn't like the way she played haydn's pieces in a modernized style thats all.

the last chopin's ballad that she played was my favouritest piece amongst all. the way she ran on the piano, bringing the whole ballad to live was awesome. i couldn't help but smile whenever i recall what she play, and i felt like a total idiot for smiling to myself on the streets. luckily i was on the phone most of the time.

okay! : D i'm going to sleep. gonna wake up for breakfast tomorrow and some piano masterclass at nafa tomorrow. haydn's sonata, liszt hungarian rhapsody, rachmaninoff's prelude and beethoven's piano concerto.

and oh! it has been long since i've blogged. welcome back, yinkwan.

2009-02-05T11:15:00.002+08:00

new year, new resolutions, old blogskin.

i haven't been blogging much. there are certain things that i'm trying to catch up with. (like, the 1337 dps of my shammy. okay, just kidding). i'm back at work, and i'm trying to bake edible, scrumplicious pink cupcakes. like this:

heh. i wish i can bake something as nice as those.

2008-12-16T23:33:00.004+08:00

in the event of christmas, this is what's the sweetest so far other than the guild party at my place.

macaroons from enoch, and tree from the bottom of my heart.

2008-12-09T08:31:00.001+08:00

i dont want alot for christmas

there is just one thing i need

and i don't need alot of presents underneath the christmas tree

i just want you for my own

more than you could ever know,

make my wish come true, MURLOC all i want for christmas is YOUUUUUUUUUU.

http://www.jinx.com/world_of_warcraft/other/talking_murloc_plush_toy.html?catid=1&cs=2&csd=1

(along with Greed & Pride, the 2 fist enh weapons from wow. HAHAHA)

2008-11-30T22:39:00.003+08:00

yes in the spirit of the christmas season, i've got myself a new blogskin. i think i've credited wrongly, because i used two different downloaded blogskins, so pardon me.

but anyway, i haven't been really blogging because i had been rather busy. but now that FYP's officially over, i'm back. maybe not so, but yes. i'm back.

and thanks yongsherng, for that wonderful disney classics. it was beautiful. if only its on ice like HSM.

2008-11-22T13:51:00.001+08:00

i'm very inspired to blog, because i realise that the 'typetype!' bookmark had been sitting there for damn long. so here i am, internet world, hello to you.

but actually. i've got to go. cya around!

2008-11-11T13:29:00.002+08:00

Don't know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone
And sometimes I need someone to say, "You'll be all right. What's on your mind?"
But the water's shallow here and I am full of fear, and empty handed after two long years

Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance to feel it

Back home I always thought I wanted so much more, now I'm not too sure
Cause sometimes I miss knowing someone's there for me and feeling free
Free to stand beside the ocean in moonlight
And light myself a smoke beneath the dark Atlantic sky

Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it

Everybody here is living life in fear of falling out of line
Tearing lives apart and breaking lots of hearts just to pass the time
And the eyes get red in the back of your head, this place will make you blind
Put it all behind me and I'll be just fine

pretty much sums up what i want to say. yeh.

2008-11-06T16:12:00.001+08:00

i can't wait till i graduate from RP.

i can't wait to empty every single mail from my inbox.

and i can't wait to empty everything from my FYP folder.

and PP folder too.

2008-10-28T13:01:00.001+08:00

you know how stressed one can be when doing FYP report, so i came across chermaine's blog hoping to see some updates, which there obviously isn't much, but i found something precious that she made me do (okay more like waste of time) last time. i mean, she made me do it last time, and now i did it again, and i can swear the results are hilarious. here you go anyway. do play it if you've got the time to spare, because it can get really funny.

How to Play

1. Put your music player on shuffle.

2. Press forward for each question.

3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.

4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

How are you feeling today?

Geek in the pink – Jason Mraz

Will you get far in life?.

Cloud smiles – FF7

How do your friends see you?

Piece of me – Britney Spears

Will you get married?

Because I love you

What is your best friend’s theme song?

How to save a life – The Fray

What is the story of your life?

The Battle Drums – Mononoke Hime

What was high school like?

Adagio of Life & Death – Mononoke Hmie

How can you get ahead in life?

Sad Story – Plain White Ts

What’s the best thing about your friends?

Hikari – Kingdom Hearts

What’s in store for this weekend?

Time Of Your Life – GreenDay!

Describe your grandparents.

Hogwarts’ March – Patrick Doyle

How’s your life going?

Home Coming – Greenday!

What song will they play at your funeral?

Where is the Love – Black Eyed Peas

How does the world see you?

Dirty Little Secrets – All American Rejects

Will you have a happy life?

Fawkes the Pheonix – John Williams

Do people secretly lust after you?

Don’t love you no more – Craig David

How can you make yourself happy?

Club Banger – Petey Pablo

What should you do with your life?

I’ll take my chances – The Click Five

Will you ever have children?

Somewhere Out There – Our Lady Peace

What song would you strip to?

I shall be released – Bob Dylan

What does your mum think of you?

Classical Symphonic in D, Gavotte – Prokovieve

What is your deep, dark secret?

Give me Novacaine – GreenDay!

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?

Symphony No. 5 – Beethoven

What’s your personality like?

This is how I disappear – My Chemical Romance

What song will be played at your wedding?

You Get Me – Michelle Branch

its funny what my mom thinks of me and my personality like. and so, i laugh.

will i ever lead a happy life? its really up to john williams.

i think its really funny especially when i've got non-pop songs in my playlist. things like what was high school like for me? ADAGIO OF LIFE AND DEATH GG.

2008-10-24T10:23:00.002+08:00

this is honestly retarded.

life is feeling more and more like wow.

especially with the achievements system.

FYP report is like, achievement.

yesyes, hemiola jenkins.

i should stop spending $4.5 on milo and whipped cream.

& i think i'm missing unker already. hope he drowns in the vietnam seas.

okay yinkwan needs to get things done.

YINKWAAAAAAAANNN JENKINS.

hemiola jenkins i mean.

LEEROY. jenkins. yes.

2008-10-21T09:20:00.002+08:00

of all these time i've been dunked into pools of shits in fyp and other stuff, i really want to start working at ben & jerry's again. i just miss the ben & jerry's people. not mentioning chermaine sarah & liyi, i really miss jasmine, cherilyn, song ping, charmaine, amanda, si hong, jelly, serene, xinjian, sam cheong, johana and tiffany (slap me, but actually the suntec girls too). thinking of them constantly make me think that life without them (like, now) is so damn shitty. everything's in such a mess, and i've got nothing to look foward to anymore. (except probably achievements on wow, which is probably not even an achievement).

ok wait, time to go schoooool shit. i'm damn late.

2008-10-13T22:00:00.002+08:00

i wanna start on a batik piece.

i miss doing batik.

but again, with FYP and pathetique in hand, i dont think its very smart of me to do so.

2008-10-13T01:04:00.002+08:00

yinkwan isn't a very smart girl.

but she is definitely very clever.

at 20, she realizes that people come & go in life.

but its getting a little difficult to pretend that it doesn't hurt a bit.

and i'm giving up.

can you save me from this world of mine

before i get arrested with these expectations

2008-10-11T01:00:00.002+08:00

yinkwan will sacrifice anything. anything at all, just to get that bloody piece of paper.

try me.

2008-10-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

i know this is late, but there are things i just want to blog about the scoopy party!

it was really fun and i can't wait to see my photos.

me: HELLO! WHATS YOUR NAME?

xj: OH HELLO! I'M XIN JIAN!

me: OH YAY I'M YINKWAN. WHICH BATCH ARE YOU FROM?

xj: 32!!!! WHAT ABOUT YOU?

me: 32 TOOO! OMG WHAT COINCIDENCE.

-_-"

^ its been long since i last used that emoticon.

anyway, i really like the rubber band that they gave us. its damn cool. as usual, photos will be uploaded when they reaches me and when i have the inspiration.

i feel like donating blood. i want that smily thing.

2008-10-02T09:31:00.001+08:00

i have finally decide that blogging openly is a good way to release stress. (:

updates later.

2008-07-29T10:47:00.001+08:00

http://www.fantasyflightgames.com/wow-adventure/

omg this is cool. anyone? anyone wants to get it for me? : D

okay im just kidding. i need rest. real rest.

and i think i raided in my sleep last night. i mean, i dont remember doing anything after shade of aran and shand told me that we went all the way to prince last night. wow.

2008-07-23T13:11:00.002+08:00

this is unbelievable.

monday: school+fyp

tuesday: school+hellboy2

wednesday: fyp

thursday: school+ut+fyp

friday: school+fyp

saturday: guzherng+teaching+bbq

sunday: church.

what is this?

i think poly teaches us nothing but tolerance. we are graded not for what we have learnt, but how long we can last. i'm so screwed now. school.

if there's something to look forward to, that would be only in september. that is approximately 2 months away.

and more guild outings please! <333

i'm freaking tired. even my backbone knows that very well. i think i've got to work on my logbook. hurrrhhh.

2008-07-21T10:25:00.003+08:00

the weekend was was amazing. thanks everyone, esp to unker zace, karre & shandor. its one of those weekends that i'll never forget.

for now.

love

~~love~~

love.

pics will be uploaded, only if they reaches me.

2008-07-18T00:15:00.002+08:00

updates tml. i'm really sleepy.

2008-07-18T00:15:00.001+08:00

omgg nice song!

2008-07-14T09:32:00.002+08:00

hello. morning world. i'm stuck in school again with my tired-est eyes on earth. cause last night, i was hooked by an alien encounter and i was on the phone with an alien till 3 am i think. then i went to ben being so very tired but happy because i realised i was speaking more nonsense than i can handle. so i bid alien farewell and invite him to come again in near future. because if alien takes too long, i'm going to start missing him. i think. probably not. nvm.

okay. this is the stupid-est blog post i've ever written.

but yeah, i'm uberly sleepy right now. probably grab some sleep in school since i can't play wow cause its not installed on my com yet.

and i need to get office installed too. which idk where kelvin is. QQ

*screams*

2008-07-13T00:02:00.001+08:00

to a certain kevin:

i miss you.

~~luv~~

regards,

yinkwan

2008-07-12T12:46:00.002+08:00

woohooo im using mac now and i'm loving it.

okay. so it had been a busy week. so busy so tired. but so much happiness. (okay as if you can count happiness)

as i've said, this is the most materialistic birthday ever. so materialistic that i don't know how to accept them actually, and i don't really know how to repay all these. there are so many things that i know its happening, but its just too bad, because i know i can't do a shit. and i can't say that i'm sorry for it, because i'm not.

oh and i would really appreciate it if someone happen to find these following CDs that i had left somewhere or with someone that i forgot, if you would return it to me. kinda miss them.

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (its in jap, so it would be sticking out of your CD rack.)
Drumline VCD. (yes its a stupid VCD i know, but i miss that show)
YINKWAN CD. the one with lily allen songs and all the old songs. ok maybe not that old. just a year ago

ok if you want you can rip it first. i want the songs.

speaking of songs, my iTunes is fucked. and i feel like a terrorist trying to search through all my songs. its just lucky that i backed them up. but my playlist is all messed. and i have to go through a thousand songs just to get them back. okay maybe that's not alot, but hey, its hard work okay! considering the busy life i have.

chermaine: we all know that your lifestyle is fucked, and we also know that if you stop gaming you wou get back on track.

and i need to buy a stupid keyboard protector. you know, when you get some damn gorgeous shit you won't want to dirty them? just like how i have to buy a stupid vase because someone sent flowers. and a pretty pouch for the ipod because i dont want it to scratch. yumyum. and i have no idea where the other presents are by now. i think i'm the worst person that you would want to give presents to. oh yes. cupcakes in my tummy.

question: HOW DO I FUCKING STOP MAC FROM DISCONNECTING ME FROM THE FUCKING NETWORK BECAUSE IT HAD HAPPENED 923785469430 TIMES SINCE I LOGGED ON FOR THE HOUR.

2008-07-10T07:57:00.002+08:00

not happy.

but so what? at the end of the day, its just a game.
i thought we were something more than a game. more than a guild.
i thought we all would stand by each other.
and yet now where raids are concerned everyone's leaving.

for the best of your toon.

whatever.

on a happier note, thanks to those who appeared yesterday. please. birthdays aren't that of a happy thing anymore. spare me the birthday song. and the maracas. <3 thanks for everything. BBQ soon! (:

2008-07-07T14:19:00.003+08:00

this may be the most materialistic birthday ever. thanks everyone.

and sarah has the most hilarious way of doing that. shall keep my mouth shut.

im falling asleep in school. shall go do dailies already.

2008-07-02T00:06:00.003+08:00

we all make wrong choices in times when it comes to life right?
i think it is okay to make mistakes. and it is okay not to learn from them.
as long as you bear the consequences that would be fine.
i dont know how long and how much this is going to hurt, but i think, i'll be alright and i'll be good.
on my own.

happy birthday, baby boy.

~~love~~
regards,
yinkwan

p/s. simpre estoy contigo, numero uno en mi vida. <3

2008-06-29T03:14:00.007+08:00

its nice to have my thought sort out. at least i dont leave myself hanging onto something that i dont even know what is it.

anyway, photos from sarah's birthday. i swear chermaine and sarah are <3. i'll never trade them for cheese fries / more coke / anything else in the world.

sarah's birthday cake, a ben & jerry's ice cream cake, is made of THE ALMONDS IN NYSFC, THE COOKIE DOUGHS IN CCCD, GRAHAM SWIRLS FROM STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE, OREOS FROM SWEET CREAM, AND BROWIES FROM CFB. upon the princess' request, of course.
this is actually a reflection of us we found outside suntec. idk why chermaine's quite amused by it that she has to take photos of it. *shrugs* weird friends i got.

best damn things. <3
v^_^vGUESS WHO?

they always say a picture says a million words. i think there are 15 photos here, which basically summarized the day we spent together in 15 million words, which isn't alot, because we had so much fun that day which no number of words can describe.

ilu!

2008-06-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

simple things: i miss you.
difficult things: i want to see you.
impossible things: i love you.

hey you yes you again who are reading this.. not.
just wanna tell you how much i miss you.
i miss you this much: <------------------------------------------------->
okay more than that.
more than the number of bananas a monkey eat a year.
more than the planktons in the sea.
the only comfort mechanism?
i get to see you soon.
and i hear your voice everyday. (: (okay although its starting to scare me a little)

2008-06-23T00:47:00.003+08:00

hey.

actually, if you really wanna know, i'm rather upset.
it may just be another silly crush, you know, those you have when you were younger? its just more now. i dont know how to explain it to you. but i really wish i can see you soon. really soon. 15 days is too much to wait. its somehow difficult to tell you, but i miss you alot.

anyway, right now i'm really sleepy. good night world.

2008-06-16T15:08:00.003+08:00

ok i wanted to delete an extra post by habhab but apparently i deleted the one by YY too. so in case you want that tag back, here you go.

YY from RP tagged: boyfriend snatcher on the loose.

and i know who you are, cause emokittenz is watching you masturbate.

2008-06-13T02:23:00.003+08:00

im 20.

okay maybe not yet, but i'm turning 20. and i'm worried.
20 and worried.
memory has already deteriorate quite badly. plus all the stress and all the responsibility i thought i could run away without it, but too bad, its not.

its like, fear.

Fear
1.5 sec sec cast
20 yd range
12% Base Mana
Strikes fear in the enemy, causing it to run in fear for up to X sec. Damage caused may interrupt the effect. Only 1 target can be feared at a time.

and when you fear, you run uncontrollably to other mobs, thus catching more aggro. ah you get what i mean. im just getting into deeper shit by running away.

and if only i can run away and never come back. that will be like, urh.. death coil.

Death Coil
Instant cast
30 yd range
600 Mana
Causes the enemy target to run in horror for 3 sec and causes X Shadow damage. The caster gains 100% of the damage caused in health.

and you die from the shadow damage. QQ.

is that what i want? wtb shadow resistance gear & drop tremor totem for the fear. i can drop totem of wrath and increase my crit rate. and .. and.. i should play less of wow.

or i can simply stand there and hellfire.

Hellfire
Instant/15 second channel sec cast
1665 Mana
Ignites the area surrounding the caster, causing X Fire damage to all nearby enemies and self every second. Lasts 15 sec.

ah yes. burn everything around me and burn myself with it drown myself in my own pool of shit and just die.

and realise that i have not soulstoned myself.

A Master Soulstone is a conjured item that a warlock can create beginning at level 70 with rank 6 Create Soulstone spell that temporarily grants one player the power of self-resurrection.

ah yes. walk back and all the shit starts all over again.

and again.

and again.

2008-06-11T03:43:00.002+08:00

its funny how much it means just to look at someone's name.
or nick as a matter of fact.
its just special.. its magic.
how much you just want them to be here. just being here is enough to take your breath away.

its so nice talking to silv. (:

2008-06-10T11:23:00.001+08:00

if there's one thing that i have to regret, it would be rejecting my mommy's offer for breakfast this morning. i woke up being very, very hungry, but being half asleep and late for school, i guess i just told her no i don't need breakfast. QQ.

well, if there's a second thing that i can regret, that would be using my words like stones hurled at him.
... but again, i do not think he deserves better treatment.

a certain rogue told me that i should start blogging like a girl. like, 'dear diary'. so here it goes.

DEAR DIARY.

i had a chain of bad dreams last night. must be the curse of sher lang. dammit.
i dreamt that ...

Angel is taken away from me! (which is going to happen very soon in september. after all these years, i have never got down to getting to know the gender of the dear golden retriver, but i really, really love it.)
i dreamt that min jia is being an ultimate bitch and i don't want to talk to her at all anymore. im so glad that this is just a dream.
GWC was on fire. the cause of it? the belgium waffle machine.

i think that is enough for someone to wake up crying, but i didn't, which is good news. but thats probably because of the fact that i'm late for school and my tamagotchi kept screaming for my attention. i need my coffee like, NOWNOWNOW, because i stayed up till 4 last night in attempts to do FYP report. stupid xin jian came and disturb me simply because he 'thinks that there's no point sleeping early during a holiday'. and because of the conversation, he got me craving for strawberry cheeseshake. and i wonder how would a ONE brownie cheeseshake taste like.

choices, darling.
choices.

urh,
LOVES,
YINKWAN. (:

p/s. stages of addiction: positive attitude -> experimentation -> regular usage -> abuse -> dependance. based on that, i think i'm on the way to being addicted to starbucks.

2008-06-06T22:16:00.002+08:00

i'll marry someone who drives a bmw and i'll drive a cooper mini.
and i'll marry someone with a mole on his cheek only if it compliments his looks.

uncle donald was being nice today. he bought me a 7.20$ lunch from the tips i think? it was salmon don from kuriya. and guess what? its all spoilt by spring onions. rahh. and i had so much trouble trying to pick them off my rice? and all he did was to stand there and laugh at me. and he had this essentric milkshake which gave me funny feelings after drinking them. i think he added some green tea powder into it? yucks. and he says that i'm going to have to work at dempsey if i dont like it. hmphf. like as if that is a threat. HAHAHAHA.

and you know, they were gone for so long just to have a 42$ lunch between themselves? and i was like, starving.
so i messaged chermaine;

me: the starving sheeps are crying for attention from the lost shepards.
chermaine/donald: pray harder.
me: our father in heaven, holy be your name, your kingdom comes, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. give us today our daily bread, forgive etc. (the reason why i put etc was cause there were customers and that the message limits had already reached)

then they came back.
"WHY YOU NEVER FINISH YOUR PRAYER? NO FINISHED PRAYERS, NO FOOD. AND SAY HAIL MARY TOO!"

wth?!

starbucks and went to chermaine's place with princess sarah after work. she kept complaining and i kept having to give her important life lessons along the way. so important that she has to remember them all her life. d: but anyway, i really, really love hanging out with the two of them. its like, typical girls' day out, which isn't that typical anymore these days. and i swear i can be on chermaine's piano for 2-3 hours without chermaine being around, because she possess some kinda aura that makes me forget my notes and expression. must be the 'piano-teacher' stress.

sometimes i realize how stupid people can be. and i feel that even if i belong to the top five percent of the natural distribution graph, i can fall into the 95% of the people and be as stupid as them. or even stupid-er. but along the lines of stupidity, i learn that its probably not as stupid as i think it is, and i seriously dont know wth im talking about. that's stupidity i think?

2008-05-28T15:05:00.001+08:00

yes. our rendition of chocolate fondue downing rage winterchill in mount hyjal.

'i've been waiting at 2nd link for the two nubs when they called and tell me that they're at thomson'.

yesyes that was from uncle zace when EE and Karrewoff came over last weekend. it was really funny seeing the both of them. you woulnd't believe what they actually study or they actually drive in the first place. hahahahaha. omg. so we had a guild outing. damn funny. <3

2008-05-22T14:47:00.001+08:00

as a friend, i'm rather concerned. cheryl loon, are you still alive?

2008-05-20T09:52:00.000+08:00

despair.

but again, probably not.

2008-05-13T10:04:00.002+08:00

ah yes updates. i love updates, don't you?

so much to do yet not enough energy.
if only i can do things using mana. and all i have to do is to drink and all my mana's up. lets see what i've got to do.

FYP log book. (liek srsly, im running out of time)
Go to school ffs.
Work work work my ass off so that i can buy a car soon. (not like ben & jerry's pay can get me there, BUT...)
Level fatfayse. this looks most promising.

i keep thinking of what sim yong sherng and su kaichuan told me the other day. hahaha. 'you're epic in WoW but you're not even greens irl. look at me! epic mount alr'. (note: he just collected his car. what car? idk. just some very fast car zoooomzooooooommm) so retarded, but he has a point. im graduating this year and im still skipping school like this. what am i going to do after graduation? i'm doubting that i can get into yong siew toh. NIE? i dont want to waste my time teaching small kids music when they don't even appreciate. work in Disneyland as 'The Minnie Mouse who sweeps the park's floors'? i dont think i'm even qualified for that.

on a happier note, we're now officially 1/5 mount hyjal. idk if it was sher lang's idea or cherine's, but it started with something like 6 people? when i joined it was 14 man, downing 5/8 waves of the trash with 2 epic drops, and it went on till night when we finally downed the first boss. NOT BAD HURHHH. happiness. i want my gem recipes! (:

oh yah. i met this girl recently who's damn ugly and apparently she thinks that she's damn pretty and she takes photos like a whore. nuff said about here.

liyi's having bnj training at scoop u now and i'm downstairs her place thinking if i should go up, because i dont know if aizah is working or not. if only her phone is on. starbucks is so cold that my caramel macchiato's became iced. i want to get out of here soon. and i need to do my FYP stuff. wheeeee~

2008-05-10T18:00:00.001+08:00

went over to cathay to work for their event. damn fun bits and super tiring handling 60+ kids who are so frigging hyper and smart... and rude. yeah. rich kids = rude kids. probably its true. hahah. but they're really sweet in their own ways luh. it was just difficult to tell them what to do thats all because once you get this group ready, the other group will run around and some kids will tell you that they have no groups.

okay now i'm rushing over to spencer's and im running really late.

2008-05-06T16:06:00.001+08:00

i give up waiting for a network i swear. school is ultra screwed. i dont even know if i should go to school every morning. and when i have such doubts, i'll always choose the latter, which so happens to be no. plus FYP is really draining. i miss the kind of secondary school life where you just go to school and play your time away. okay maybe that didn't happened much as well.

chermaine's iPod is <3. met her yesterday to get my shirt and return her iPod and take songs from her, which apparently the two songs i really want isn't in my thumbdrive yet? leavin' and pictures of you. so asked liyi out as well for dinner. i think our lives has been dominated by WoW. all we talk about revolves around WoW and WoW and nothing else. ok maybe nothing much. i thought daddy could send me home, but he finished work late last night, so i shared a bus with a whole group of people and this uncle who had to take off his smelly boots and puthis legs on on the top of seats, which was seriously disgusting. i wonder how his wife can actually tolerate it.

was damn damn damn sleepy and guess what? xin jian! i dreamt of you. and the dream was hilarious.

fuck. there's no internet connection at this macdonalds. i'm angry now. should have just gone to starbucks.

/edit.

i just got to school for UT. the UT client isn't up. shit. went to NP in the morning, enoch's place in the afternoon. scary.

and i'm lvl 31 now. : D

2008-05-02T10:36:00.000+08:00

2008-04-30T00:08:00.001+08:00

free cone day was a blast.

thanks all who came, all who supported, all the gwc staff, the non-gwc staff, the happy managers, the unilever helpers and me. we scooped and mend the store non stop for 10 hours today and i'm proud to say that i frigging love you girls + a guy and a man or two. i really love the great world team. with us, its nothing but efficiency. : D

dinner @ dempsey after that. so cool.

pics will be up soon. i promise. as soon as chermaine sends me the photos. (:

2008-04-28T11:17:00.001+08:00

i know this came very, very late, but yes. happy birthday, LEONG jiawen. i seriously think you should try to grow taller and tanner before you can live up to your screen-name. but nevertheless, yes stop questioning about your present. i'll promise one okay? but oh well, procrastination runs in my blood.

2008-04-27T00:45:00.001+08:00

today was : D

anyway, in my perspective, i think there's no right or wrong in a relationship or what you see in a boyfriend. the more important thing is how both understands each other and compromise. there IS a difference between a boyfriend and a male best friend, i mean, come on, do you fuck your best friend? i don't think so. or rather, then why call him a boyfriend instead of a best friend? or does that mean that having a male best friend during the course of a relationship makes you a two timer? or three timer or four timer?

so if one cannot compromise, the best way is to accept it and keep quiet. but how long can you keep this to yourself? you like to run away from problems and i like to solve them so it won't happen again. but because i understood your background and how you were brought up, i compromise, but that doesn't mean that i accept the way you are. its like, yeah, i can't blame you for being like that, but hay, you can't blame me for hating it too. and i think when you said you care, i expected something like at least listening to me when i speak, taking the effort to understand how i felt and not to throw back words that hurt. when i told you how i felt, i expected you to at least listen.

and to care is about trust. trusting means that you don't question my conscience. how do i trust you when you said you trust me but you question what have i done? if you dont know the situation, use your brains. will i do anything to harm anyone in the first place? at least you. if i can get down on my knees to ask for her forgiveness in your place just because you asked, why would i even hurt your friends?

if you decide to live your life by the textbook answers of what is right and what is wrong, i think its probably time for you to mature. yeah, i'm in no place of telling you to do so, but in what place are you to tell me to do so?

so correct me if i'm wrong, but i think i know what i'm doing. if i can make myself happy, even if its for that one tiny moment, so be it. if you can't make me happy, don't take my happiness away.

p/s. wangzhi, call me soon. thanks.

2008-04-24T13:32:00.001+08:00

was running ramps with liyi and monia was tanking. <3

the run was really irritating..
this paladin was being such a wimp and the warrior was being such a tard.
the warrior couldn't hold aggro and the pally kept whining for a tank. that was why moniar was there anyway.

so we were at the last boss, when monia /g.

monia: i hope this tard of a warrior wouldn't make it to 70.
me: oh you mean the guy in the guild?
monia: yeah
me: oh yeah he's fucking annoying
karrewoff: this is the first time i see hemi saying fuck.
me: wanna join?
someone else: fuckett fuck fuck
me: !! no badge of justice! i want my boj. *whines*
karrewoff: oh. no boj (badge of justicce) so cannot fuck her.
me: ?!?!
someone else: so how many badges of justicce do you need to fuck?
me: ?!?!?!!!

then then then later.

someone else: fuck.
karrewoff: how many badges do i need?
rest of the guild started laughing and having fun relating badges of justice to fucking. hurhurhur.

wth right.

oh yes. Mozart is God's way of making the rest of us feel insignificant. When you composed a piece thinking that its good, its only humble to think that Mozart did a better one when he was only 9. HAHAHAHA. i really love this line. shall go read more. : D

2008-04-20T21:30:00.001+08:00

i'll smile and try to mean it
to let myself let go

mika is special. i've grew out of mika, but his songs still mean so much somehow.

i'm so so so tired today, and i'm rather pissed off actually. too tired luh i guess?
work was damn fun, sales was rather disappointing i guess.
ate ALOT. srsly.

im going to get some sleep first.

2008-04-20T02:24:00.001+08:00

How to Play
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
How are you feeling today?
ocean avenue – yellowcard

Hurh? You meant that’s a kind of feeling?
Will you get far in life?
I’ll see you in my dreams

HAY THANKS HURHHH. Siala.

How do your friends see you?
the hardest part – coldplay

Wootness. Hardness. D:
Will you get married?
air on G string - bach
this is the only time I don’t understand bach. Someone explain?

What is your best friend’s theme song?
figure it out – plain white t’s

Yeah. Go figure it out.
What is the story of your life?
to the sunmmit – Robert w smith.

Woohoo~
What was high school like?
Disney fantasy – Tokyo kosei winds

HAHAHAHAH NICE ONE.
How can you get ahead in life?
gravity of love – enigma

What’s the best thing about your friends?
Danse Diabolique (!?!?!)

Anyone knows the program notes for this?
What’s in store for this weekend?
With all thy might – poi ching band
Describe your grandparents.
chrono trigger themes (!!!)

How’s your life going?
Cinderelly cinderelly
What song will they play at your funeral?
pacific dreams – Jacob de hanns

How does the world see you?
making a memory – plain white t’s

Will you have a happy life?
I’m not okay (I promise) – My chemical romance

Do people secretly lust after you?
Terzett: “in holder anmut stehn” – Vienna boys

How can you make yourself happy?
space travel – yellowcard
What should you do with your life?
starry starry night – don mclean
Will you ever have children?
masquerade – abdrew Lloyd webber
What song would you strip to?
twenty-three - yellowcard
What does your mum think of you?
my boo – usher featuring Alicia keys
What is your deep, dark secret?
where’d you go – fort minor

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?
colours of the wind – Arturo sandoval
What’s your personality like?
damn girl – Justin timberlake

What song will be played at your wedding?
alfie – lily allen

2008-04-18T00:47:00.003+08:00

spelling my name wrongly lowers my opinion of the writer.
hi, my name is YINKWAN, not yingkwan, not yinkwang, not however you spelt it.
read properly, Y-I-N-K-W-A-N.
or if you can't spell, there's always serena.

im at the esplanade library here while chermaine is currently missing-in-action lost in the world of scores. i swear i wanted to go school today, but my feet betrayed me by dragging me into starbucks. i swear i spent alot today. dieeeeeeeee.

sex and the city, anyone?

2008-04-17T00:13:00.001+08:00

wangzhi, stop disappearing from my life. where are you when i need you? i really, really miss you alot. would you come and buy me starbucks soon? (:

2008-04-14T02:25:00.001+08:00

today was a DAMN BIMBOTIC day at work. i swear, swear that we're going to die of laughter during free cone day man. ho ho ho.

2008-04-11T14:04:00.002+08:00

its probably your defination of what is good for you
and i think at your age you should be able to take responsibility of what you have done and choose the path that you want to take by yourself.
i guess its not up to me to tell you what i see anymore, because i told you once, but you didn't believe in me. and honestly, i felt rather insulted.
apparently it was a relationship build not on trust, but more on something else.
you say you love me but you wouldn't accept me for who i am.

but i shouldn't push the blame entirely on you too, because i did the same thing.
i knew you too well, babycakes, that i know what you're gonna do next, but i chose to kid myself.
did so much to betray my own integrity just to make you happy. for that tiny hope that you'll care, but no. you choose everything else besides someone that truely wants you around. you ask what do you get in return if you do something for me.
i think of every little thing that i can do just to make you feel appreciated,
but when i look back at myself, what do i get?
and yes, baby, i do see what shines in you, but i see the shit that is in you too. what do they see?

you had your dumb friends, i know what they said
they tell you i'm difficult, but so are they
but they don't know me, do they even know you?
all the things you hide from me, all the shit that you do.

p.s. i would appreciate it that you don't question my well beings.
i'll be fine and i'll be good, so don't you worry about me. i'll probably block you on MSN if you do.
if you're really worried, come to me and talk to me irl.

2008-04-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

pictures from cally's birthday. <3

2008-04-09T21:32:00.001+08:00

BFF. really.

ilu~

2008-04-09T20:55:00.001+08:00

if liking you was a childish thing to do,
i dont mind being the most childish girl on earth.

2008-04-07T15:08:00.002+08:00

you know, your msn contact is special.
somehow it has this aura that makes me click and say hello.
but do you know, im actually screaming i love you in the inside?

school's a bitch. seriously, can't they let me connect to wow and do my dailies?
i was so frigging tired last night that i didn't do it.
marcus was being a nice friend.
he waited for me until he's late for school.
but being yinkwan means being lucky, the train broke down for him.
so he had an excuse to take his own sweet time to school.

lunched with some sgcafe people.
saw so many people in school..
and the school has a damn weird culture now.
black and white stripes and laces are killing whut people used to point out to be RP students.
i wonder what's next.

dont ignore me. ):

2008-04-07T00:10:00.001+08:00

zomg school's starting tml lets fucking hope that RP won't flood our inbox with welcome messages from OSG and IGs ktnx. i've already recieved one from sui.

first module of the year? MICROBIOLOGY. like, thanks HUH.

Microbiology is a fascinating field of study, delving into a whole new world of organisms that are too small to be seen with the naked eye. Students will get to know the different microorganisms that encompass the microbial world and how they interact with each other as well as the environment for their survival. Practical components of this module will focus on basic microbiological techniques such as the preparation of solid and liquid growth media, streaking and inoculation of bacterial cultures, bacterial enumeration and basic microbial staining.

i'll miss working. free cone day coming soon! : D

2008-04-05T13:54:00.001+08:00

updates from cally's house. i thought i was the only one, but HAY. EDNA AND REBECCA ARE HERE TOO!! AND ALEX AND TONY ARE COMING. YAYYYY.

yes tony. the guy with the shiny blades.
shiny.
mr muscle.
met him in the morning.

cally and rebecca are playing PSP
while edna and i are sitting beside each other IMing each other.
how cool.

maybe not.

pictures up soon!

2008-04-05T02:57:00.002+08:00

im gonna hold you, baby
cause i'm gonna miss you like crazy
even if you're half way round the world!

skating at kallang was damn fun today. although it was rather expensive.
it was like 13 for student's entry and 3.50 for boots rental.
and (*@#&$ i was the only person who had to pay for the rental. hmphf.
starbucks after that and caught the last train home. : D

happy birthday, cally.
you know you're my favouritest love for the past 20934873957 yearst that i knew you and you will still be my favouritest love for the rest of our lives.
oh such BFF. <3
xoxo.
now you're 20 and im still 19.
you'll have to feed your bird as how your bird had fed her fish okay!
will give you fyshphood soon.
can't wait to see you tml!
ilu!

2008-04-02T23:21:00.002+08:00

official announcement:

Ben & Jerry's will be giving out free ice cream on the 29th April as a form of tradition to show our gratitude and appreciation to all our loyal fans who had supported us (ie. me for the past few months) for the past 3 years in Singapore. Come down to Great World City, United Square, Cathay (and another outlet that i forgot) for a free cone (with ice creams, you cheapskate monkeys) to celebrate this joyous event of YINKWAN SCOOPING ICE CREAM FOR YOU FOR FREE. yesyes.

unofficial announcement:

hi cheryl loon wei ling. you know since the day you disappeared, i've been fuckingly missing you like mad? we were supposed to go out during the holidays, but look what happened? school is starting on monday and we haven't gone out once. see you soon okayokay? (:

and i'm strangly missing danica too.. probably the effects of seeing maysi just now.

updates:
i'm sorry, i typed this last night but i forgot to press publish, mainly becase i was photoshopping some stuff and photoshop hanged and i fell asleep. and now chermaine is complaining that i didn't say bye. supposed to meet her soon. but she's on the phone without letting my say bye. so my mom is like waitinig for me for lunch. hahahha omg! chermaine cannot tell the difference between walkman and discman just like amanda who cannot tell the difference between hailstones and ice burgs. ho ho ho.

2008-03-30T22:13:00.001+08:00

ah yes. the happy food. (:

2008-03-28T14:00:00.003+08:00

the littlest things that takes me there
i know it sounds lame but its so true
i know its not right, but it seems unfair
things are remidning me of you
sometimes i wish we could just pretend
even if its only for one weekend
so come on, tell me
is this the end?

2008-03-28T10:06:00.002+08:00

yinkwan is currently very, very sad. dont ask why, because the person who made her so frigging sad should know, and she/he better do something about it soon. really.

happy belated 21st birthday, liyi.

celebrated my brother's 12th on the same day. wootness.

okay i'm damn hungry now. but i dont think i'll have the mood to eat. i'll try, no promises.

2008-03-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

today was : D

2008-03-22T02:03:00.001+08:00

here is an official announcement to the world:
yinkwan is sick.

2008-03-19T18:11:00.004+08:00

going out with liyi is so so so random hahahaha.
met her in town last night and we just walked around town and talked about funny stuff. took neoprints!

'Cause it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in

work today was boring. worked with jenny after knowing her for so long. she's funny. and she has a funny email too! but i kinda forgot already.

i never lied. i really did like you.

playing hey there delilah on repeat mode is so fun. the tune never gets stale. : D
went over to enoch's place and gave him chocolate therapy the winner ice cream.

and i still do.

and im so so so tired now i can totally fall asleep like instantly on the bed after dinner. and i think i should totally change my eating habits and sleeping habits. its getting really fucked up.

the more i learn, the more i love
the more my heart can't get enough.
ilu..

2008-03-17T13:38:00.002+08:00

OKAY MY LONG LONG LONG ENTRY IS GONE. OFFICIALLY GONE. DELETED. POOF.

15th march:

disney on ice with bryan.

16th march:

dinner with kelvin.

amen.

2008-03-16T01:47:00.002+08:00

when you go, would you even turn to say;
i dont love you, like i loved you yesterday?

2008-03-12T21:46:00.004+08:00

this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
and i'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by

i found a place so safe, not a single tear
the first time in my life and now it's so clear
feel calm, i belong, i'm so happy here
it's so strong and now i let myself be sincere
i wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling

: D